hihi!

i have no braces! i have no braces! my lip is bleeding! my lip is bleeding! nananananana! :|

one of my previous brackets was deformed so the dentist decided to replace everything. she gave me 2 days to enjoy my bare teeth :|

most of the people i follow tweet almost about everything. they tweet when they just got home, tweet when they're about to have a meal or snack, tweet about when they can't log in in their account, tweet when they're about to go some place else, etc etc.

it's flooding my timeline :|

a tweet or two will be fine

i grew watching WWF turned into WWE.

i even thought that everything that is shown was real until i came to the right age :|

Jeff Hardy is my ultimate crush in WWE :)) he took a break for about a year or more then came back rockin' his way to the ring!

yes. there are good looking guys in wrestling! and he's one of them!

my day started when i heard my mom already arrived from cebu. she kept calling me out to have our brunch. my brother and his girlfriend are still in bed so it was me, my tita, dadi and mami who had our meal. my mom wants me to go to tito caloy's memorial service..a few days ago i really wanted to go but i think they don't want me to :| i dunno, for some reason they still think i'm a little kiddo who needs not to participate in this solemn events.

i end up accompanying my mom and tita together with some of our neighbors to the mass then to the Forest Lake where tito's remains will be buried.

again, i'm trying to empathize with the family whom just lost their beloved by trying not to smile but my mom's just plain weird :| it was her first time to take a look at the calm looking body of tito caloy in the coffin and it was also a good timing because all tita nelly and her family needs are support from their relatives and friends.

when we were in biñan for the eulogy, i'm trying my best to held back my tears. i don't want to break down in front of my mom...i find it awkward....but all those messages i heard are really heartfelt and touching. especially from kuya ian (son) he lost his dad and if i were in his shoes...i won't even have the guts to stand in front of everyone and deliver his dad's final words.

it was also the first time i saw my mom teared up.

my tita told us that tito caloy wanted a grandchild of his own. every kid in the block kept calling him "lolo". he told kuya ian about this "kelan ba ako magkaka-apo...marami natawag sakin ng lolo pero wala pa ako tunay na apo"

it turns out that kuya ian and ate daisy (wife) wanted to get married before having a baby...but for his dad, they compromised. "anong pakialam natin sa sasabihin ng ibang tao kung para naman sa ikabubuti yung gagawin natin" so from that...sam was born...the first grand daughter.

kuya ian even considered to have a civil wedding instead but tito caloy told him "hindi mo ba alam na ang dream ng every girl ay mag walk sa isle"

true.

all he ever wanted was to have a grandchild but not to put pressure or put the couple on the spot. but for love, everything is all good.

the tito i used to see walking from their house to somewhere...wearing shorts and loose sando with glasses on...shed several pounds surprisingly turns out to be this most kind person that touched a lot of people's lives.

i used to think that your worth is not measured on how many people loves and cares for you, but it doesn't hurt to see that A LOT of people got your back..why? because you matter to them.

still it doesn't justify how little or huge a number of people will show up on your wake, you just have to know that they are there to support you all the way.

i'm going to be a good girl and won't post another fierce picture of cel :)))))))

Mina adds to my struggle of being productive...the bed weather is really a bed weather and that's an excuse for me to stay in bed and lie in bed while watching :))

for something as relaxing as this day is...how come there's nothing good to watch!? and why can't i play sims social in facebook!? WHY! i'm beginning to think i'm the only one who can't play while others are with their sims. tsk.

i am one big spender. unintentional and it just happens. i don't know why :|

i am the only one in here who doesn't have a job so i guess it's okay for my dad to spend on me...but shame on me! i'm trying not to ask anymore because i think it's too much...even though they are willing to give me money, there's a part of me that says "you suck! get a job!" :|

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i tried to listen on fm radios before i go to bed so i could get updated on what songs they have on their playlist and i've been meaning to blog about what are those cool jobs that requires sacrifice

• DJ's (disc jockeys) - you get to play music all day long, you're good quality voice will be broadcast nationwide, you get to meet awesome people who'll drop by in your booth and sometimes you get unexpected presents from shy fans who leaves food, etc. outside your door :| the downside is you are stuck on holidays or on special occasions...probably missed out important happenings in your life :|
• Network Peeps - those who work in top networks that where people see your shows everyday. again...no holidays, low pay and working on exceedingly hours. social suicide :)

if i want to be peyton sawyer...sacrifices shall be made :((

i just found out this afternoon that Tito Caloy passed away. He was our neighbor that was one of the people i knew back when i was little.

funny story about him was that i used to go to their house every christmas to ask for "aguinaldo" because i thought he was my godfather...then my tita told me that he was not ... it was my parents' office mate...that was awkward. but still...he never refused to give me gifts and take me as their own godchild. that was nice. as years passed, i quit asking for his hand to make "mano"

i was there a while ago with kuya and tita to pay our respects. i don't do good in these kinds of things....to show sympathy...mostly i just kept quiet. as i walk in to their house...i saw tita nelly (wife) crying while telling how things went this afternoon...i even saw kuya ian (son) getting all teary-eyed because of their lost.

i was really surprised on how things turned out. all of us here in our street were shocked...

now i'm starting to think that this month is really cursed...i've known a couple of people passed away...

i tried not to get emotional about it but i considered him as one of the people that really looked out for us when we were young...us meaning me along with my playmates.

to keep things light and casual...most of my tita's (the moms around here) tried to joke around and gave a few chuckle...i tried not to because i really don't think that this is the time to just laugh it off. i tried to hold it in for a moment when my ninang who sat next to me kept on murmuring the rosary...

while tita nelly was telling us how things went in the hospital...where tito can't really bear the pain he's feeling...he grabbed his wife's and son's hand as if bidding his goodbye....i can't help but think that maybe if i'm in his position...i would do the same...

the bad thing about this is that there's a chance for him to survive..but it was too late for them to get to the doctor that could help them out. based on the story...the nurses kept on doing several tests when in fact his body can't take anymore pain...and they even want to make them pay the down payment or the fee for them to accommodate them. what the fuck.

drum roll please!!!

(br brbrrrrrrrr) :|

Adam Levine made it to my boy crush list! tenen!


I was supposed to watch the whole episode of "The Voice" last night because of the teaser they aired on AXN. it just so happens that my brother and dad were watching the 4th installment of Pirates of the Caribbean downstairs...and i don't want to miss it.

hopefully i get to watch the pilot of their season 2 this week.

he's fun, cute and so determined to win! GOOOO ADAM!!!

i was busy tweaking my dad's new/old phone when i received a message from Ms. Bangs. She wanted me to send all the photos to her house via courier. i wasn't planning to do the post-processing of the photos i took last saturday anytime this week. i immediately load it up on the pc and did a couple of adjustments, will have it burned and send it tomorrow morning :|

plus i will be doing a fashion shoot for her some accessories she's planning to sell this coming september...

i now own a new samsung phone thanks to my dad and also thanks to my mom for doing the honor of wiping it out on my hand causing it to fall flat on the floor :| unang binyag.

i'm getting used to the qwerty style...bwaahahaha! now i would take care of it....i won't lose it nor have it snatched or break it.. i promise!

that song is stuck in my head.i

just got home form today's work, i get to cover for the event planner her nieces' birthday...a sweet 16 and a girl turning 13. as always the setting was all glammed up...pretty in pink and purple.

the photos are still in my memory card and is hall work on it tomorrow.

the best part of the event was 2 tables filled with sweets for everyone...at the end of the day...i get to grab ANYTHING I WANT! bwahahah! i have a loot full of milk pastillas that i've been craving for since forever...jelly beans...mini m&m's and some cube chocolates. 2 chocolate fountains for a fondue. i get to sweep mallows after my work and just join everyone for a treat. it way better than trick or treat :)))

i also sow a celeb that i'm not familiar with but he's kind of cute and he knows how to doug :| maybe i'll include him on my boy crush list.

on my way to decagon silver city (venue) and back here at home...weird stuff or people came along the way. a cab driver whom is so lovin' the music playing and even beat everything he could hit in the car as if he's playing drums :| and a bus conductor whom i sat next to just a couple of minutes ago that threw up out of the blue :| good thing he didn't do that next to me :D

days are better when i'm all alone in the house..so long as there's this money issue between my parents i really feel like i'm have a broken family.

as much as possible i don't want to brought up anything that concerns my mom or money when i talk to my dad so he could spare me the talk on how pissed he is...i wish my brother would do the same!

come on dude. why do you have to rub it in!? i hate it when we finally have everyone in the table to enjoy the meal and everything will be spoiled because someone doesn't know how to shut up.

if this goes on, i'll save money to get my own place...bring my doggies with me and they can do the backstabbing all they want.

the hotel heiress as most of us know have been staying here for a week and as I am blogging about her right now..she might be sitting First Class on Cathay Pacific or some other airline if it's not a direct flight.

i just saw my high school batch mate's video of HER following Paris on the CX Lounge and went gaga over her :))

Girl: Hi Paris!
Paris: Hi!
Girl: OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!

one of the perks you'll get when you work as a ground attendant is catch a quick glimpse of celebrities or international rock stars and divas when they arrive and about to leave.

i even tried to take a picture of avril lavigne even though it specifically says in her requests that she doesn't want to be photographed.

but what i never did is to look like a crazed fan that's leaning towards stalking :)))))))

Someone have made it to my boy crush list :)

Sterling Knight aka Chad Dylan Cooper from "Sonny with a chance"

why do i fall for chinitos :))

and there it goes again. i just saw another picture of a batch mate in venice, italy :(( most of them are out there conquering the world in their own way and i can't help saying "sana ako din!" :(

time will come and when it happens "agatha will do world domination" bwahahah!

i'll be like my mom and i will go places.

i'll start with letter "A" hahha!

i woke up around 3 am, stunned from the heavily pouring rain and the roaring thunder. i tried to calm myself...maybe this is a growing fear.

i tried to sleep but for some reason i was a bit paranoid...it's as if i heard someone banging on the door...then i heard our dogs bark at something which add up to my suspicion. i immediately got up and check all the locks, i even looked outside if someone's at the gate. it is creepy when all you can hear is the out pour of the rain. i went to the kitchen and again my tita's room is wet and it went all the way to the kitchen. i was too tired to mop it so i just threw a couple of door mats to absorb every amount of water it possibly can.

meet my new crushes and soon to be boyfriends :D

someone who sings but has two left feet...


and someone who can bust a move but can't sing at all

i've got so much stuff to do and i always end up not doing it.

i need to look for an application form of australian visa for my mom. how come most forms are really difficult to find!? the site kept suggesting several links and still no form to download? facts..facts...all facts!

a friend told me a while ago that my high school classmate called me a snob :|

SCENE: he saw me at Quiapo while i was busy discussing something about my classmates on where we should go for a photo walk. he came up to me in the middle of a dilemma (due to not making up our minds on where to go *annoyed) and said in a very time consuming greeting "uuyyy!!! agatha! (low-five) nag po-photography ka pala!!!" and i just gave him a nod and on to my previous conversation with my classmates.

it turned out that before he approached me, he told his friend that he knows me and even bragged about it :| he said "tignan mo...classmate ko yan...kilala ako nyan!"

after our brief greeting...his friend told him "AKALA KO BA KILALA KA?! HINDI NAMAN ATA E"

another incident was he was on the same place and i might have been there too (dunno when) and he said i just passed by him without saying hi :))

i find this actually funny.

of all the places where i could take some time and chat with someone i know...it definitely won't be in Quiapo :))

sorry if i come off as a snob...and i also apologize if your friend didn't take your word for knowing me. it was just BAD TIMING :))

and i'm most certainly not a sociable person...peace!

as much as we want everyone to be there when we hang out...not all could come. we miss sarah :)

pictures will be posted tomorrow and as mentioned, i'm not allowed to tag them on every shot :)) they want to make their own album on fb.

today was fun!

picture taking on every corner of that semi-deserted place and a slice of pizza for everybody :D

i wrote all of mami's contacts from her phone to paper. after that, i'm stuck with N95 which is sort of a nice thing so no one's going to bug me anymore on the "i own that, i own this" matter.

it's nice that she dropped by with all the groceries then took off again at the office for tomorrow's work.

my mom apologized when i asked her yesterday if she's going home..maybe she feels that she's missing out on us...in my case..i just want everyone to be around...not fighting or making faces.

i've been bailing out on a lot of people lately, including my best buddy :(

i just don't want to go out these days...there's so much going on in my head right now and to be honest...i'm in the lowest part of my life right now (so far)

still no job and i have a bad haircut :|

i promise i'll make it up. my eagerness to have an adventure is MIA right now.

a huge amount of hair has been chopped off and it's starting to look not so good so i'm thinking of another haircut.

not to self. don't let anyone touch your hair other than kuya mario. no dario or rino or any other stylist in bench fix.

i need to clean my room because there are visible dust bunnies on every corner and organize my closet... probably having a second look on things i don't wear anymore and give it to someone else other than my mom.

i've been doing a catch-up episodes on pretty little liars up to now since i always missed out the match airing.

i bailed out on my supposed meet up with kate and mely today because i wasn't feeling well. they must be having a retail therapy so my lost.

no words can describe how depressed i am right now and there's no point on blogging about it since it won't make a difference. i guess i'll just have to keep myself preoccupied.

i'll give you back this phone as soon as mom gets home. if i wasn't waiting for important messages from several companies i would be fine without one.

fyi. i didn't broke your other phone...you sat on it dummy.

it's as if i have a cursed hand that breaks anything. kaasar. exaggerated masyado.

humans could be cruel sometimes. torturing something helpless is just sick and in humane. i can't help myself but to curse them every time i see this kinds of things on the news.

what if i go to paws' rehabilitation center to volunteer :D i've been wanting to do this since high school..i just don't know how.

as much as i want to adopt a pet...i can't...i have 5 dogs here and they are quite a handful...so no thanks, i'll just stick to volunteering :D before the year ends, i'll come and visit.

http://www.facebook.com/pawsphilippines

i had plenty of sleep from 2am until 7am then 9am until 12pm :| come to think of it...it's just 8 hours?!? but i feel so energized!! my tummy and legs are sore but still...energized!! ugh!

tita was invited to sam's birthday party at the number 1 party place in the philippines for kids...JOLLIBEE!!! :)))))) she handed me a cupcake that i've been eye-ing when she stepped in. it's so moist and sweet and i want more. :| i wonder how DC Cupcakes tastes like....is the actual cupcake fluffy or has a surprise center that's going to ooze out once you take a bite out of it? is the frosting piped on top of it has this rich flavor? i'm really craving for cupcakes right now. usually i don't go for them when it comes to sweets because i hate taking a bite and all the frosting gets stuck between my teeth...then i discovered fork :| so now i love them :D

let's be best friends :|

aside from jackie chan an bumblebee you made it to Agatha's Best Friend List :D

i want to go to japan and have you take a picture of me levitating on my way in to the bullet train ok??

I MUST HAVE SELF PORTRAIT OF ME LEVITATING....I.MUST.

when the cable is not doing its job on airing entertaining shows...i have found myself seating in front of the peecee watching pretty little liars.

by the way...spencer! i love your character ms. pretty and proper and one top achiever but you have got to stop kissing your sister's boyfriends!!

i finally had the guts to send ms bangs a message about my application. after 6 hours...she replied about having an event at Decagon Silver City on the 20th and as usual...i'm going to cover the whole thing and give her the raw files...and as usual...i'm not going to give her the raw files for Php1200. nope. it's a no no to give your clients the raw files unless they pay for it. if you hand 'em these...you'll lose total rights to the images you've produced :)

god i suck....i want to be employed so badly.

nothing posted in this account is reliable nor true. i think. if this is just one way of messing with us you are fucked up and twisted.

i can't believe she's gone. Mrs. Paula Taliman is one of the best teachers in San Lorenzo...the English teacher promoted to being the Vice Principal of the school. Looks may be deceiving, she shows off this strict persona, but once i get the chance to be in her class it was amazing. i saw her last year in the jeep when i was on my way to alabang and i didn't even said hello :(

one of my best memories in her class was the proper cursive writing...she is really good and a mom to her students...she's even more involved with us unlike our principal. :( Mrs. Taliman...you would be missed...may you rest in peace.

i play city ville a lot...when i logged in my facebook...i scroll the news feed to see of there are requests so i could score the item they are asking....and of course...check a couple of funny videos posted.

you could post stats....rants, announcements, quotes...etc. but one thing that really annoys me are those people who have so many issues in life :)) and seem to buy attention through FB. like this one! she's a former classmate, at first i didn't find her annoying until she keeps sending me messages about an IP4 For Sale or Hair Extensions for sale! rush! :| and her constant fb stats that floods on my news feed or to someone else' who doesn't give a crap. the name that has a red mark is her daughter...her 4 or 5 year old daughter :| whom i assume doesn't know her password in her account :|

you have a twitter account...let it be your outlet for whatever you're feeling and enough with the stats. one or two is enough...but the image above are some of her posts. it comes off as if you want to be featured on the top news :)))))))))

okay i get it...i've lost my phone three times that's why my parents doesn't want to buy me another one...it's not my fault if some creep decided to take it nor return it. it's not like i'm waving my phone on someone else' face for them to snatch it :|

my brother's girlfriend lend me her old phone...the one their office gave them and i can really feel that it won't last...the fact that i've been charging it since last night. it's not totally mine so there's a need for me to give it back in good shape.

yesterday i tried the "kawawa effect" on my mom..."kawawa naman ako...lagi na lang hand me down phone ko" it turns out she has a new phone and asked me to transfer all her contacts from N95....the phone i used to have (that she took) :| i was so excited to dissed my current phone for my old time buddy...so i immediately took it from her bag and voila! the * key is missing. the then cool phone turned into an old crap because she's not taking care of it. again..i have nothing. damn it!