my day started when i heard my mom already arrived from cebu. she kept calling me out to have our brunch. my brother and his girlfriend are still in bed so it was me, my tita, dadi and mami who had our meal. my mom wants me to go to tito caloy's memorial service..a few days ago i really wanted to go but i think they don't want me to :| i dunno, for some reason they still think i'm a little kiddo who needs not to participate in this solemn events.
i end up accompanying my mom and tita together with some of our neighbors to the mass then to the Forest Lake where tito's remains will be buried.
again, i'm trying to empathize with the family whom just lost their beloved by trying not to smile but my mom's just plain weird :| it was her first time to take a look at the calm looking body of tito caloy in the coffin and it was also a good timing because all tita nelly and her family needs are support from their relatives and friends.
when we were in biñan for the eulogy, i'm trying my best to held back my tears. i don't want to break down in front of my mom...i find it awkward....but all those messages i heard are really heartfelt and touching. especially from kuya ian (son) he lost his dad and if i were in his shoes...i won't even have the guts to stand in front of everyone and deliver his dad's final words.
it was also the first time i saw my mom teared up.
my tita told us that tito caloy wanted a grandchild of his own. every kid in the block kept calling him "lolo". he told kuya ian about this "kelan ba ako magkaka-apo...marami natawag sakin ng lolo pero wala pa ako tunay na apo"
it turns out that kuya ian and ate daisy (wife) wanted to get married before having a baby...but for his dad, they compromised. "anong pakialam natin sa sasabihin ng ibang tao kung para naman sa ikabubuti yung gagawin natin" so from that...sam was born...the first grand daughter.
kuya ian even considered to have a civil wedding instead but tito caloy told him "hindi mo ba alam na ang dream ng every girl ay mag walk sa isle"
all he ever wanted was to have a grandchild but not to put pressure or put the couple on the spot. but for love, everything is all good.
the tito i used to see walking from their house to somewhere...wearing shorts and loose sando with glasses on...shed several pounds surprisingly turns out to be this most kind person that touched a lot of people's lives.
i used to think that your worth is not measured on how many people loves and cares for you, but it doesn't hurt to see that A LOT of people got your back..why? because you matter to them.
still it doesn't justify how little or huge a number of people will show up on your wake, you just have to know that they are there to support you all the way.